Let Me In

For some personal privacy, the blogpost'S title was changed :D but the title has the thing that happened to me just now, on my previous blogpost, I talked about forgetting Someone, And thats why I think this song by Owl City is the perfect song for me





Its still hard, For goodness sake, I see her everyday!

I just partied my ass off!

The gowns, the tux, the tie, everything you need to have a red carpet party, it was great, the most fun I ever had,

Then, when you think everything cant be more fun, we were sent to the spotlight to dance, we had fun,

We had great food, enough to fill my tummy to its content, then, when we were eating, I noticed someone came in the door, and there she was, I was stunned, and was stopped from getting my spoon to my mouth.

("I thought you had enough?")

Then I remembered, I looked away and ate my food, barely cleaned my plate.

("I thought you admire her?")

Instead of watching the program, I was glimpsing at her,

("Hey make up your mind!!")

The last part was to freestyle dance on the dancefloor, we all danced our asses off, then took pictures with our tux, gowns for the girls.

Before dancing, I looked her up if she was still at her table, and then danced myself to forger.

She left..

Not even leaving a glass slipper for me to hold on to..

Love comes in all shapes and sizes,

we love our families, we love our friends, and we love someone special,

we love our families because they are the ones that took care of us until we are who we are right now, we love them for who they are, but sometimes we reject loving them because of their behavior, but we love them if possible.

we love our friends because they are the ones that helped you mold your personality you have today, they are there to make us laugh, they are there when we cry, thats why we love our friends.

we love someone.. well.. i loved that someone because of that "something" that i felt the first time i laid eyes on her, i admired her from afar, but i have to stop this madness,

ohhhhhhhh life..

whaaa, I couldnt asked for more!

Im depending on the one who will write my love story, you and I know who HE is. I know its a great one, thats why its taking time :D, I think that a chapter of that story just happened without me realizing it.

I came early..

I waited for my friends..

I bowed my head, hoping to catch some z's.

I looked up..

and there she was,


"Chills run down my spine"


I said to myself, "this is it, ill talk to her".

Thats what I said too after going down and drank some orange juice, I passed onto her when I got down, when I went back up, she was nowhere to be found.

I loved what just happened..

I hate my reaction..

Im a coward, chicken!

I let that opportunity slipped by, but life goes on, tomorrow is another day, I have to put on a happy face again, just like this (//.^)

Whaa, the spell is coming back to me! yey! *ehem*

I know I haven't posted any updates to this blog this past weeks, that's because I turned my back on the main purpose on why this blog was created.

I thought I'll never talk to her again, im surprised that *pop*, and there I was, it was good to have a talk with her again, yes, im happy, not exited, happy..

As the story unfolds in my very eyes, I walk with caution, knowing..


"Cause eveything is never as it seems"

Lets face it, Music is POWER!!
haha, I got this from an add at gagabux ->
that ad made me thinking, and its right, music IS power! in fact, music can hypen up a human in many aspects.

Music is used in rowing boats, if your familliar with the "Dragon Boat", then thats what im talking about, they row their boat to the beat of the drum, so they row synchonically, because without unity, that boat aint going nowhere :).

Music is used at handicraft workshops, when workers sing together a specific song, thier working speed will whoppingly increase by 30%, I dont know that specific songs though, got a little time for research, but you know what I mean.

Music is commonly heard everywhere, in fact, you always bring music in you, you sing when you feel like it, you play it with your music player that's always in your bag/pocket that you would'nt be caught dead with, thus, making you feel a certain emotion, depending on the genre of the song your singing/listening to, I recommend the tracks of the band above as you can see





their songs really are good, specially for those who are in love, really has that unexplainable happiness when you listen to ther songs, makes you feel all alive and stuff inside (//.^)

well, all is not rainbow and cupcakes, there are songs that's meant to melt your heart not by love, but by bits and peices, "Like a broken glass that cuts through your pulses" (//.-)

As The war continues, drastic times calls for drastic measures, when the enemy gets too close to your home base, a "Last line of Defence" is put into action, all of the best of the best is here to prevent the further penetration of the enemy onto your base, which is likely happening now, its not a war, its most likely...

My lovelife, as it is like a battlefield for me, wherein victory is not an option, where I need to do whatever it takes to survive, slowly, it feeds of the life out of me, making me a more fragile person, luckily my "mask" can hide off this "war" inside of me. but my mask is getting weaker and weaker.

As I thought all hope is lost, a troup came in with a blinding light, it was my last line of defence, My Friends, I could'nt beleive that I would react in such a way towards my friends, their really fending off the feeling thats been corrupting me, I thank them sincerely from the bottom of my.. umm.. hypotalamus :)

They really helped me alot, even though they dont know what im going through right now, they help me forgot, I've totally forgotten about her on that time, I can't thank my friends enough, if this keeps up, I may win the war.

"Who am I kidding, I might've won the battle, but not the war"

Whoa, its so hot out today, its too hot for everyone, you may think that this is a bad thing for us, but for me, its just fine :D.

I love the heat, but not too much, I dont know why but when im at home, when no one's around, ill much likely turn off all fan and cooling appliances that I see running, then sit back, relax, and watch myself sweat, dunno when and why I started doing this, but this is how I am since I can remember,

Its fun too, well not too fun, if its hot, but who does'nt want to have fun under the sun? I mean c'mon, Its great to spend some time with friends under the sun beside a soaking wet pool, and the whole day ahead of you, who would'nt want that?.

And its environment friendly, umm.. kinda.. well.. think about the solar power the heat is producing, with that much heat, I think you can power up your house with that heat for 2 days :D,

Yes, I much likely prefer sunny days over rainy days, some today might think that rainy days is much suitable for them, cooling off and stuff, and hating the heat, because of that sticky feeling you feel inside, causing fires, but whatever pros and cons the heat might bring, I still prefer it over rain,

because when it rains..

everytime it rains..

once you feel the cold wind.. the chilling atmosphere..

I remember.. remember the pain caused by her..

the sad part is, she's not responsible for the pain, because she has no obligation, and worse of all, she doesnt know that she's causing it :(

I'd rather be burnt alive in the scorching sun, rather than to be soaked in the coldness that compromises the pain I feel inside..

It hurts..

As the title states, The song "Vanilla Twilight" of the band "owl city" has its new video! im very happy about this, but first of all, let me take you to how I found out about owl city's songs.

I was browsing through the net for some songs to put on my player, The song "Fireflies" was on the charts back then, when I searched for it, I found out that there were many songs for the band "owl city", I was very curious about ther songs, having the title of "If my heart was a house", "The bird and the worm" and I decided to listen to them. I was surprisingly pleased with what I just heard, I cant explain but when I hear their song, its like im always happy, always in love, well, its really hard for me to put it into words, so just listen to their songs!.

Then when I turned on my T.V. I was surprised that the song "Vanilla Twilight" was playing! I was so happy! I who was listening to it for a long time appreciated the video for the fact that its the first time seeing it, the feeling was overwhelming! I really love his songs! I wish him and his career more power!

Yup, I really love his songs! and what a good timing for the video debut. because his songs really helped me, especially when im sad like this.

Thank you "Owl City"

Here I am, Yet Again, Bothering myself at the middle of the night, well I cant blame myself, because rigth now, I feel like im trapped in a spell, an unbreakable one, its binding with me, the only words that can explain this is..

"The poison is setting in.." and im liking it :D.

Well, like every poison, its dangerous, and its spreading fast, I dont know how, I dont know why, why im here at the first place.

A friend of mine texted me a quote, and she was right.

"The most sensitive part of the body is the eye, because a severe contact with another eye.... can make you fall in love"

and whoever wrote that was right, whenever I lay eyes on her, I feel like being bashed, stunned, mini-stunned, echoed, burrowed, impaled, and chronoed alltogether.

Whenever im near her, which is never, cause it feels like we have the same polarity, which leads me being repelled, well, to be precise, im repelling myself, everytime she's there, everytime I sense her presence, chills run down my spine, making me feel like I should run away, far, far away from her, but not too far, far enough for me to keep my distance, and also set eyes on her, make her melt, errrr.. So I can stalk her, ummmm.. So I can stare at her, ehem, aww what the heck....

Well, whatever poison this is, its far to strong for me, Its like nothing compared to the previous ones, I just hope that I'll Survive this, Because when I do....

"Ill be Immuned to this" :D

I cant sleep... its two o'clock in the morning and here I am scribbling on what just happened, well, to think of it, this happened to me also when I was in grade school.

As a young naive child, you get inspired by a certain person with sometimes unexplainable reason, I admired a classmate of mine, she was little, like a cute doll, she has the longest hair, big round eyes, "cute and petite" as you might say, I was walking down the hall when she called out to me, she never noticed me before, let alone know that I exist, so to my surprise, I turned my head around, and there she was... looking at me, smiling, its like were the only person in the world.

...then she said...

"taba mo ced"

talk about moments,

It was on a joking manner so it wasnt personal, a joke actually, then she ran off, like a little girl she was, then I turned my head back

...then...

I bang my head on the wall, looking down while I rub my head, I tripped, almost.

When I went to the bathroom to do my thing, I stared out the window, thinking of her.

Unbeleivably, that was one of my best days,

She somehow resembles the present girl thats been running on my mind, no need for details, because she'll always be beautiful in my eyes.

To others, being single is really sad, but there are other things fun about being single, like being able to flirt with everyone you can lay your eyes on, In a good way, dont get me wrong. and why take on a relationship on an early age anyway? its not like your going to run out of partners that you will meet on your life, hey! im sounding miserable.. im here to cheer you up! :D.

Being single is not all that bad, think about it, you dont have to load your phone everyday, and if so, your load budget wont be double! i know you cant barely make it out of school with your allowance, so hey! thats a plus! :D.

Second, you dont have that "Distraction" you keep thinking about, thinking about him/her while on the classroom, while eating, while with your friends, even while sleeping you think of him/her, this kind of thinking may affect your studies, so its an another plus!.

third, more HAPPY TIME! :D try to think, you'll slowly lose bonds with your friends, because all of your times you spend with him/her instead of going out with them.

But honestly, its much fun to love, dont let my opinions affect your decisions in life.

Okay Okay, I didnt think I cheered you guys up at all, >.< But I wish you did, :D you may be thinking "Who would write a crap like this? a teenage nerd addicted to different kinds of games that cant get a girl even the opportunities are in front of him?", my say, "Hey! you dont hear me complanin'?!".

Please look at the bottom of the site, I suggest going to that link. :D.

__Am I just thinking of her To forget about her?

This blog is dedicated to bringing you the brighter side of life, here, I will be posting all of the happiest things we dont really see in life, and those we see everyday

Likewise, I dont want to be much talk, lets just wait and see where this blog will lead to..